舞会,他们坐在高台上。爱瑟妮一时兴起,站在高台上跳舞。哈里害怕,请她快下来,她兴致正高,不肯听话。杰克愿陪她跳。哈里无法,只得也站上高台。这一幕便是三人性格的缩影,也是后面整个沉重故事轻松的演习。
军令传达,哈里,杰克一众好友,都将开赴苏丹战场。人们都很兴奋,只有哈里退缩。他说,我很害怕。他说,你可想过一旦身陷战场……你不怕回不来吗?这个哈里好像只是怕死,怕离开刚刚订婚的爱人,虽然他说遥远的沙漠与女王有什么关系,说我从来就不想从军那都是父亲的意思,听上去也太像借口。他好像真的是一个懦夫。
于是接下来当他自己去苏丹,几乎死在沙漠里,又混在当地人中间给英军搬行李,真有些不太理解。因此当他说有很多原因,主要是他害怕,阿布法玛笑了。但他说,那是不一样的恐惧。
直到当他为了营救朋友身陷战俘营,几乎无法支撑下去,递给他一瓶毒药,他说,i have nothing left to lose, i have nothing left to live for, 但我还是恐惧。而阿布法玛说,恐惧永远不会消失。
哈里怕什么?不是死亡,不是身体的疼痛,也不是外人的看法。他怕的,或许只是朋友和爱人给他的四根羽毛。为了让他们收回这四根羽毛,哈里愿意付出一切。
题外,想起一首歌:
It's the fear
It waits for the day I will let it out.
To give it a reason, to give its might.
I fear who I am becoming,
I feel that I am losing the struggle within.
I can no longer restrain it,
my strength it is fading,
I have to give in.
It's the fear
Fear of the dark
It's growing inside of me,
that one day will come to life.
Have to save
To save my beloved,
there is no escape,
because my faith is horror and doom.
Hold down your head now,
just let me pass by.
Don't feed my fear,
if you don't want it out.
I fear who I am becoming,
I feel that I am losing all beauty within.
I can no longer restrain it,
my strength is fading.
I have to give in.
It's the fear
Fear of the dark
It's growing inside of me,
that one day will come to life.
Have to save
To save my beloved,
there is no escape,
because my faith is horror and doom.
Long ago it came to me
and ever since that day,
infected with its rage
but it ends today.
It's the fear
Fear of the dark
It's growing inside of me,
that one day will come to life.
Have to save
To save my beloved,
there is no escape,
because my faith is horror and doom.