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Ah, where should i even start...i know it is silly to say that it totally overthrew my impression on paris. It might be hard to believe how genuine this girl is. Sometimes people get so used to act out the nonexistent icon they portrait and gradually become incapable of remembering who they are and what the heck is real.

It is totally relatable in the beginning, that a quote from the sketch says 'she is totally spoiled. What did she do'. Right, what did she do? What did she do to be deserved to be sent to asylum like shit school? What did she do to be abused and exploited out of her private sex life? What did she do to be born in the crappy heartless fake bitch family?

I first got to know the name when i was in middle school, back when she was a permanent headline girl for all sort of gossip websites. Pictures of her wearing pinky glittery gowns, styling with barbie ish sunglasses and handbags, being caught with braless and bottomless scam snaps, cant really do much to relate her to a mature adult. She has always been so behind her age in every way as i can recall, which is an obvious sign of childhood trauma and mental issues. You can really tell the difference between one who dress up like a barbie as a fashion and one who dare not to get out of the barbie fantasy. Till today i refuse to read more about her since it always gives me anxiety and insecurity to look at her. My intuition is correct and It hurts me so bad as i finished this film without pausing.

From the beginning to the end, i doubt her passion for everything: her business, her social media persona posing, her family... I can only see sparks in her eyes when she is hosting a night club show and interacting with her fans. She is the only celebrity that convinces me of genuine bond between fans and stars. She really finds love and shelter in fandom.

Shes been acting the dizzy unnaturally sweet voice bad ass girl for so long. It touched me when the shooting its over, her manager told her to get ready on 8am tomorrow, that she was extremely worn out by the tight schedule and just moaned that she was really tired. She cant find solace from anybody including her family and her team. For the very first time in her life and on camera, she stopped squeezing her sound and quit walking like on the runway. She is nothing more than a lonely girl loving her pjs.

It literally pissed me off by two points. Her douche boyfriend accidentally drops her laptop and acts like a fking baby on backstage to call her attention 3 mins before show, and that her mom escaping education on children by playing out of sight out of mind, faking her regrets afterwards. It is not that traumatized people are bound to be with trashy person, but just admit it that they are trash on their own.

She s been living in this barbie persona all her adult life. But she wasnt cared nor loved like any barbie doll. Guess she will not give up the icon she created, but she can finally be mindly free for once.