看完这季，很想记载两段对话，一个是奎恩和凯瑞，一个是德国大亨和凯瑞。
Carrie,I guess I'm done,and we never happened. I'm not one for words,but they're coming now. I don't believe in fate or destiny or horoscopes, but I can't say I'm surprised things turned out this way.
I always felt there was something kind of pulling me back to darkness.Does that make sense?
But I wasn't allowed a real life or real love. That was for normal people.With you, I thought, ah, maybe, just maybe, but I know now that was a false glimmer.
I'm used to those-they happen all the time in the desert-but this one got to me.
And here's the thing, this death, this end of me is exactly what should have happened.
I wanted the darkness. I fucking asked for it.It has me now.
So don't put a star on the wall for me.Don't say some dumb speech.Just think of me as a light on the headlands, a beacon, steering you clear of the rocks.
I loved you.
Yours,
For always now,
Quinn
The truth is..it was painful.
-How so?
Turning him down. Saul recruited me, he trained me. He's pulled so many hatches out of my back. I've lost count. We were a team, we've always been a team.
-And is that what you did? Turned him down?
Yeah. I don't know what's ahead, but that chapter of my life is over. Finished.
-So you are ready to hear another offer? I'd like to make one.
I can't go back to work right away, Otto. I'm sorry. Too much happened. I need to take some time. Be a mom for a while.
-Understand. But I'm talking about your old job.
No?
-No. You've trained your team well. Mike can take over.
What then?
-Over the years, I've hired a lot of extraordinary people, interviewed a lot more.
Well, you're picky, you're famous for it.
-Never anybody like you though.
That's nice of you to say.
-It's not nice. I read your application, saw right away how brilliant you are, what a freethinker, and insisted on meeting you.
I remember.
-We sat down at 10:15 on a Wednesday morning. I offered you the position at 10:30.
I remember.
-I was waiting for you, Carrie. I was waiting for you to walk through the door.
Okay, I'm a little lost.
-I want a partner, someone who knows the world for what it is, but also knows it must be made better. Someone to share my life with.
...
我不知道下一季会是什么，会从哪里开始讲，会以谁为主线，我觉得这季的感情线有很多令人莫名其妙的地方。我总是试图让自己完全融入进去体会每个人的感情和想法，无法设身处地，也努力去理解。很多人因为这部剧迷恋奎恩，我发现我竟然有点迷恋凯瑞，她的确有这个魅力，让周围很多人围绕。这里面很多人追求的我感觉都不是爱情，可以是陪伴、依赖、寄托、信任，但似乎都不是爱情。
Saul人到中年，又刚刚离婚，Quinn心里向往的黑暗，想结束一切，律师的追求稳定，Otto的伙伴梦。男女之间什么样的关系最令人羡慕，又最令人唏嘘，我想就是，一种战友似的，交付后半生的，了解彼此透彻到灵魂的那种关系，若即若离却又不离不弃，既不是婚姻下的伴侣，又不是什么soul mate，而是话到嘴边说不出，有时又按捺不住的激动。
我觉得第五季，我开始不再那么关注政治、战争等背景，我觉得凯瑞作为一个有特殊身份的女人，形象变得非常立体。讲宗教讲政治讲伦理讲正义，说到底还是讲人，我觉得做一个有趣的人并不那么酷，一个真正立体的人才会。
完结
